Thursday, November 10, 2005
To all seniors and juniors of Vesper,
cheer rock is comin' real soon.... and there's still alot to do.. so far all my stunts can be done but juz need to suit the timing of the songs... i've been sick these few days cuz i'm having attachment and trainings as usual... really really worn out especially with my health probs and plus....i'm having my period!!! what the hell!!... i hate that seriously...
anywae, to all the seniors and juniors... pls keep a good bonding in between us.. its very important in cheerleading team... although we have dislikes sometimes jus forget it or bear with it ...i hate ppl who have doubts and talk behind ppl's back...seriously i choose to confront the person but muz see whether the other party could take it positively or not... sometimes its really hard to communicate with humans...i rather be a dog with good owner.. juz eat and sleep with no worries...but there's no choice... for those ppl who always make mistakes ....PLS ADMIT AND CHANGE FOR GOOD... a person's patients won't last forever...i'm goin to say this for ONE LAST TIME.... me , now as a Captian couldn't hold much longer for the team.... i have my own medical bills to cover...so its NECESSARY for me to work.. maybe i 'can't always be there when i'm in need but at least i put in all my effort. Currently i'm having probs financially cuz i'm tired of dancing...its not easy for me to work...i'm in debts now cuz i need to cover my medical bills... pls be undertanding for all seniors and juniors can? i'll be off for a while after the cheer rock competition but i know we'll be performing for Chingay 06 rite?...so dun worry... i'll come back for training when i need to...but still i need to do some checkups on my spine and my head cuz i can't sleep at night... it aches really really alot...i'm hoping to tell my family abt my condition on my disease but its difficult cuz they too have probs and currenty only me and my sister is covering the expenses....haih... seriously i don really tell u guys abt my probs...maybe only a few of u guy knows...its not that i don care abt my team but sometimes when i myself have problem and coincidently i have probs with my team and frens i'll be very very pissed off....i couldn't cope...its not easy to handle so many things alone at one time u see....
Lastly to all the juniors...pls help the school to carry on team Vesper... i've built a good impression to the school and they start to change their perception on us... pls pls...recruitment.. u guys need to be much much more outspoken... feel free to speak with strangers and chio all the guys to join so that all e girls can fly....rite?...i ,myself was a base and sec. flyer in my all girls' m'sia team i wish to fly more cuz i think if there's guy exist in the team, girls should be given a chance to fly....but unfortunately my dream wasn't fulfill but its okay.... juz let it be cuz i don have enough base in my team...so...i think i'll juz have to get with it ba...pull more guys in no matter they r attached or not.... if those girls out there r thinking that we r bf stalker...pls juz ask them to shut up cuz they r the 'bitch wannabe' and we r the real bitch...don be scared of wat ppl say...they don understand wat we r facing so juz forget it...
i'll be leaving the team for good after the seniors commissioning ceremony...hopefully the juniors will arrange something good for the ceremony... i believe u guys could built a better team out of it..on and off i'll come back and see how it goes.... so juniors ah... no tricks k... muz do ur job!!!
probably i'll still be active in cheerleading ba... but muz sort out all my probs first then i could continue my dreams of flying... don be angry of wat i'll be doin in the future ex:join other cheerleading open team...:)
if u guys have anything that u dun understand abt wat i'm saying in this LONG LONG blog...feel free to comment k?i don wish to answer you guys personally cuz i don wanna keep it in my heart anymore....no hard feelings for wat i've said here . i'll voice out more if i still have anything regarding the team :)
thank you.
Luv,
CaptAIN -stand and bow-