Saturday, February 12, 2005
today's training was.....uhh, how shall i say it... "fruitful". not literally. more of the methaphorical sense. lets juz say before a competition, there's GOTTA be a thrashing session. it can end in 2 ways. we get to know each other better, laugh, cry, hug and all that and get along with the competition. or we realise we can't work together and withdraw from the competition. either way, its for the better. fortunately it was the former for Free-Z Vesper. really didn't wanna withdraw after working so hard. but ofcourse i dun wanna go out there and end up a laughingstock also la. argh.
i need to say something and i hope no one kills me for it... somehow a small part of me wish we nv make it big. i mean everyone is their nice humble selves cuz of our situation. if we get like 2nd for, say, 4 years running like magnum, i'm afraid we'll end up like magnum. oh so-way-up-there. proud. unreachable. COLD. augustio said if u dun perform well in magnum they isolate u. that sounds terrible. its as if the passion doesn't matter anymore. its all about winning. then because of our high profile a lot of pple will join us and the team will break into cliques. and its not as if pple join for passion either. they juz wanna be part of a good team. our Free-Z Vesper almost split down the middle today and we only hv 15 pple. imagine the damage if it had been like 30 pple. like ice said, bonding and trust IS important. augustio says we're plastic now. i dun want that to worsen and become superficial power hungry. i guess after this whole speech thing i've said what i wanna say is that if we really acheive our goal of 2nd ever. this year, next year or whenever i dun want the team to take it for granted. gotta rmb how started. please dun be like magnum.
i guess i juz think too far and too much.
-regiNa
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